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Break Free from AA’s Programming
and Finally Trust Yourself Again
An on-demand deprogramming experience to help you
reclaim your identity, your freedom and your future.
Break Free from AA’s Programming and Finally Trust Yourself Again
An on-demand deprogramming experience to help you reclaim your identity, your freedom
and your future.
You know there’s no disease in the parking lot doing push-ups.
But you still feel like you’re drunk on the 12 step Kool-Aid.
Because the fear is loud.
The guilt is loud.
The shame is loud.
Your mind is haunted by slogans you never consciously agreed to—but still believe.
And that line about not being able to trust your own thinking?
It sank in deep.
You’re starting to see it now—the ultimate con job was getting you to doubt yourself.
And you do. You second-guess everything.
You wonder if you’re selfish.
Ungrateful.
Delusional.
You wonder if you’re going to relapse and die.
Or worse—go crawling back to meetings, tail between your legs,
begging for forgiveness and resetting your f*cking day count.
You try to shake it—But you can’t stop thinking, “What if they were right?”
And you can’t tell anyone what’s really going on.
The emotional rollercoaster is brutal enough without being ghosted by your old friends on top of it.
So you isolate, stuck in your head, trying to figure it out alone.
Because at this point, you don’t know who’s safe anymore.
You didn’t leave to rebel.
You left to be real.
And free.
But now you feel like you’re in free fall—cut off from the community that felt like family, wondering if you’ve lost your damn mind.
It’s not that you want to drink.
It’s that you want to live.
And you’re starting to realize— you’re still stuck.
Not in addiction.
Not in relapse.
But in programming.
Because even though you left AA… It hasn’t left you.
And that’s the part nobody warns you about:
The fear in your head.
The shame in your gut.
The guilt in your body.
The doubt in your soul.
But you’re not crazy.
You’re not broken.
You’re not doing it wrong.
You’re waking up.
You’re in the After Recovery Void.
That disorienting space between the life that saved you…
and the life that’s trying to be born.
And there is a name for what you’re feeling.
Exit trauma.
This is what it feels like to leave a high-control group.
It's the high control hangover.
You’re not doing it wrong–you’re doing it right.
The chaos you’re feeling?
It’s the program still running in your mind.
They told you your brain needed to be washed.
Now you’re realizing… it’s time to get it back.
You weren't just "in recovery."
You were IN a belief system that trained you to hand over your power.
They taught you to fear your own mind, to depend the group to survive,
and to believe that life beyond the program meant certain death.
That’s not recovery.
That’s programming.
The After Recovery Void Was Hard AF For Me Too.
I got sober in 2009.
Spent over a decade in AA.
Not just attending—I was all in.
Meetings in every time zone.
Coffee commitments.
Speaking in jails.
Crying at Bill Wilson’s grave.
But then I started noticing cracks in the ideology that I couldn’t unsee.
Moments of cognitive dissonance I couldn’t explain away.
I was afraid to leave.
Afraid I’d relapse.
Afraid I’d be judged.
Afraid I’d be shunned.
Afraid I’d die.
When I finally walked away, I thought the worst was over.
Instead, I found myself spiraling in self-doubt, shame, and isolation.
Haunted by slogans.
Gaslit by my own thoughts.
Terrified to speak the truth—because I didn’t know if I was allowed to.
I was still sober…
But I wasn’t free.
So I went deep.
I studied cults, trauma, the nervous system, emotional manipulation,
and every therapist-level training I could find on addiction and recovery...
...just trying to prove to myself it was okay to leave.
Suddenly I remembered that Bill Wilson was a salesman.
Then I mapped the Big Book like a sales page.
I questioned everything.
What I discovered changed everything.
The problem wasn’t me.
It was the programming.
I need to recover from recovery!
I needed to deprogram AA.
And then something unexpected happened.
A year after leaving AA,
I got diagnosed autistic.
Then later ADHD.
AuDHD.
Suddenly, everything made sense—why the ideology clicked so hard.
Why I followed the rules so fiercely.
Why I internalized it all so deeply.
AA wasn’t just speaking to my so-called “untreated alcoholism.”
It was speaking to my neurodivergence.
And I secretly believe a lot of folks in those rooms are neurodivergent too
—masking their true wiring, being told it’s character defects or their "disease,"
and trying to fix something that was never broken.
I didn’t have a fatal progressive disease.
I have a divergent brain.
But framing everything I was going through as
“alcoholism” and prescribing the 12 steps as the only solution
didn’t just miss what was really happening.
It actively pulled me further from myself.
I couldn’t see my true wiring because I was told it was wrong.
My sensitivity, my intensity, my pattern-spotting mind—my strengths—were labeled defects of character.
But once I started deprogramming, I could finally see what was mine… and what was never broken to begin with.
And that changed everything.
Because when you understand how your brain is actually wired,
you stop trying to fix yourself—and start building a life where your strengths work for you.
You don’t just “support” your brain.
You create a world where it can thrive.
You don’t need a “daily reprieve.”
You need a life that actually fits your brain.
The Truth Is… You Don’t Need More Recovery.
If your gut's telling you to leave—if this page is hitting harder than the slogans ever did—then deep down you know:
You don’t need another meeting.
You don’t need to call your sponsor.
You don’t need to journal your “character defects” or write another f*cking 10th step.
You need your mind back.
And that starts with one thing: Deprogramming.
You know there’s no disease
in the parking lot doing push-ups.
But you still feel like you’re
drunk on the 12 step Kool-Aid.
Because the fear is loud.
The guilt is loud.
The shame is loud.
Your mind is haunted by slogans you never
consciously agreed to—but still believe.
And that line about not being able to
trust your own thinking?
It sank in deep.
You’re starting to see it now—the ultimate
con job was getting you to doubt yourself.
And you do.
You second-guess everything.
You wonder if you’re selfish.
Ungrateful.
Delusional.
You wonder if you’re going to relapse and die.
Or worse—go crawling back to meetings, tail between your legs, begging for forgiveness and resetting your f*cking day count.
You try to shake it—But you can’t stop thinking,
“What if they were right?”
And you can’t tell anyone what’s really going on.
The emotional rollercoaster is brutal enough without being ghosted by your old friends on top of it.
So you isolate, stuck in your head,
trying to figure it out alone.
Because at this point,
you don’t know who’s safe anymore.
You didn’t leave to rebel.
You left to be real.
And free.
But now you feel like you’re in free fall—cut off from the community that felt like family, wondering if you’ve lost your damn mind.
It’s not that you want to drink.
It’s that you want to live.
And you’re starting to realize
—you’re still stuck.
Not in addiction.
Not in relapse.
But in programming.
Because even though you left AA…
It hasn’t left you.
And that’s the part nobody warns you about:
The fear in your head.
The shame in your gut.
The guilt in your body.
The doubt in your soul.
But you’re not crazy.
You’re not broken.
You’re not doing it wrong.
You’re waking up.
You’re in the After Recovery Void.
That disorienting space
between the life that saved you…
and the life that’s trying to be born.
And there is a name for what you’re feeling.
Exit trauma.
This is what it feels like
to leave a high-control group.
It's the high control hangover.
You’re not doing it wrong
–you’re doing it right.
The chaos you’re feeling?
It’s the program still running in your mind.
They told you your brain needed to be washed.
Now you’re realizing… it’s time to get it back.
You weren't just "in recovery."
You were IN a belief system that trained you
to hand over your power.
They taught you to fear your own mind,
to depend the group to survive,
and to believe that life beyond
the program meant certain death.
That’s not recovery.
That’s programming.
The After Recovery Void
Was Hard AF For Me Too.
I got sober in 2009.
Spent over a decade in AA.
Not just attending—I was all in.
Meetings in every time zone.
Coffee commitments.
Speaking in jails.
Crying at Bill Wilson’s grave.
But then I started noticing cracks in the
ideology that I couldn’t unsee.
Moments of cognitive dissonance
I couldn’t explain away.
I was afraid to leave.
Afraid I’d relapse.
Afraid I’d be judged.
Afraid I’d be shunned.
Afraid I’d die.
When I finally walked away,
I thought the worst was over.
Instead, I found myself spiraling in
self-doubt, shame, and isolation.
Haunted by slogans.
Gaslit by my own thoughts.
Terrified to speak the truth
—because I didn’t know if I was allowed to.
I was still sober…
But I wasn’t free.
So I went deep.
I studied cults, emotional manipulation,
the nervous system, trauma,
and every therapist-level training
I could find on addiction and recovery...
...just trying to prove to myself
it was okay to leave.
Suddenly I remembered that
Bill Wilson was a salesman.
Then I mapped the Big Book like a sales page.
I questioned everything.
What I discovered changed everything.
The problem wasn’t me.
It was the programming.
I need to recover from recovery!
I needed to deprogram AA.
And then something unexpected happened.
A year after leaving AA,
I got diagnosed autistic.
Then later ADHD.
AuDHD.
Suddenly, everything made sense
—why the ideology clicked so hard.
Why I followed the rules so fiercely.
Why I internalized it all so deeply.
AA wasn’t just speaking to my
so-called “untreated alcoholism.”
It was speaking to my neurodivergence.
And I secretly believe a lot of folks
in those rooms are neurodivergent too
—masking their true wiring,
being told it’s character defects
or their "disease," and trying to fix
something that was never broken.
I didn’t have a fatal progressive disease.
I have a divergent brain.
But framing everything I was going through as “alcoholism” and prescribing the 12 steps as the only solution didn’t just miss what was really happening.
It actively pulled me further from myself.
I couldn’t see my true wiring
because I was told it was wrong.
My sensitivity, my intensity, my pattern-spotting mind—my strengths—were labeled defects of character.
But once I started deprogramming, I could finally see what was mine… and what was never broken to begin with.
And that changed everything.
Because when you understand how your brain is actually wired, you stop trying to fix yourself—and start building a life where your strengths work for you.
You don’t just “support” your brain.
You create a world where it can thrive.
You don’t need a “daily reprieve.”
You need a life that actually fits your brain.
The Truth Is…
You Don’t Need More Recovery.
If your gut's telling you to leave—if this page is hitting harder than the slogans ever did—then deep down you know:
You don’t need another meeting.
You don’t need to call your sponsor.
You don’t need to journal your “character defects”
or write another f*cking 10th step.
You need your mind back.
And that starts with one thing:
Deprogramming.
Because this isn’t just “recovery fatigue.”
It’s not “dry drunk syndrome.”
It’s not a sign you’re “going back out.”
And it sure as sh*t isn't "untreated alcoholism."
It’s the predictable result of long-term exposure to a high-control ideology.
The good news? Once you see the pattern—you can break it.
Evolving After Recovery is the only course designed specifically to
help you identify, unravel, and release AA’s psychological grip—so you can
finally think clearly, feel grounded, and trust yourself again.
This isn’t about hating AA.
It’s about deprogramming from it.
You don’t need more stepwork.
You need a system for getting free.
That’s what this is.
A soul meets science meets sass deprogramming process—designed for people just like you.
People who stayed long after it stopped serving them.
Who are now trying to navigate the wreckage
with no map, no language, and no support.
Until now.
Because this isn’t just “recovery fatigue.”
It’s not “dry drunk syndrome.”
It’s not a sign you’re “going back out.”
And it sure as sh*t isn't
"untreated alcoholism."
It’s the predictable result of long-term exposure
to a high-control ideology.
The good news?
Once you see the pattern—you can break it.
Evolving After Recovery
is the only course designed specifically
to help you identify, unravel, and release AA’s psychological grip
—so you can finally think clearly, feel grounded,
and trust yourself again.
This isn’t about hating AA.
It’s about deprogramming from it.
You don’t need more stepwork.
You need a system for getting free.
That’s what this is.
A soul meets science meets sass deprogramming process—designed for people just like you.
People who stayed long after
it stopped serving them.
Who are now trying to navigate the wreckage with no map, no language, and no support.
Until now.
Imagine This:
- You wake up and trust your gut—without asking, "What would my sponsor say?"
- You say what's true for you—and don't spiral afterward wondering if you've just ruined your life.
- You no longer run your thoughts through an imaginary 12-step filter before you speak, post, date, dream, or make a f*cking decision.
- You finally know the difference between your intuition and indoctrination.
- You're not triggered when someone says "alcoholic"—because you know who you are.
- You walk into your life without needing approval, permission, or a f*cking day count to prove you're worthy.
- You speak your truth with a grounded nervous system and a quiet, holy kind of confidence.
- You stop fearing your own brilliance. You stop apologizing for wanting more. You stop shrinking to fit the script.
Because now, you’re free.
Free to think.
Free to feel.
Free to evolve.
Free to live.
The slogans are gone.
The fear is quiet.
And you finally trust your own mind again.
Deprogramming makes this possible.
Imagine This:
- You wake up and trust your gut—without asking, "What would my sponsor say?"
- You say what's true for you—and don't spiral afterward wondering if you've just ruined your life.
- You no longer run your thoughts through an imaginary 12-step filter before you speak, post, date, dream, or make a f*cking decision.
- You finally know the difference between your intuition and indoctrination.
- You're not triggered when someone says "alcoholic"—because you know who you are.
- You walk into your life without needing approval, permission, or a f*cking day count to prove you're worthy.
- You speak your truth with a grounded nervous system and a quiet, holy kind of confidence.
- You stop fearing your own brilliance. You stop apologizing for wanting more. You stop shrinking to fit the script.
Because now, you’re free.
Free to think.
Free to feel.
Free to evolve.
Free to live.
The slogans are gone.
The fear is quiet.
And you finally trust your own mind again.
Deprogramming makes this possible.
What You’ll Walk Away With:
- A clear mind and a grounded nervous system
- Language to name what's been happening inside your head
- Confidence to trust yourself again (for real this time)
- A path forward that's yours—not Bill's
- A quiet kind of freedom that doesn't need a day count to prove it
What You’ll Walk Away With:
- A clear mind and a grounded nervous system
- Language to name what's been happening inside your head
- Confidence to trust yourself again (for real this time)
- A path forward that's yours—not Bill's
- A quiet kind of freedom that doesn't need a day count to prove it
This isn’t just a course. It’s a deprogramming system for people leaving AA.
Inside, you’ll walk through 8 transformative modules that help you identify, unravel, and release
AA’s high-control tactics—so you can reclaim your truth, rebuild your autonomy, and finally live free.
Module 1: AA’s High-Control System
Understand exactly what you’re breaking free from. We’ll name the high control tactics so you can see the system clearly and stop blaming yourself for how hard this has been.
You’re not failing—you’re escaping a high-control group.
2: Mind Control Recovery
This is where the spell breaks. You’ll learn how AA shaped your thoughts without your consent—and how to dismantle the core beliefs that are still running in your mind. You’ll uncover “The Big Lie,” rewrite your truth, and finally start thinking clearly again.
This is where the fog lifts.
3: AA’s Neurodivergent Gaslighting
What if what they called “untreated alcoholism” was actually just your neurodivergence? Here, we unpack how AA pathologized traits like sensitivity, intensity, and pattern recognition—and help you reclaim them as your superpowers.
You don’t need to fix your brain.
You need to understand it.
4: Freedom From Manipulation
You’ll name the emotional control tactics for what they are—spiritual gaslighting, narcissistic abuse, and cult-like control. This is where guilt starts to dissolve and boundaries get built. You’ll walk away with clarity, confidence, and scripts for real-life conversations.
You’re allowed to protect yourself
from systems that once helped you.
5: Reclaiming Your Power
This is your identity rebirth. You’ll reconnect with your truth, your voice, your joy—and stop waiting for permission to be yourself. We’ll trade spiritual obedience for soul-aligned expression, and build real internal safety without external validation.
You were never powerless. They just told you that.
6: Creating New Connections
Leaving AA can feel like social death. In this module, we’ll grieve the loss and build new soul-deep connections. You’ll learn how to spot safe people, find your kindred spirits, and stop apologizing for walking your own path.
You’re not alone.
You just haven’t found your people yet.
7: Recreating AA’s Benefits
—Without the Dogma
AA did serve you. And here’s the wild part: You can recreate everything good about it—structure, support, connection, purpose—without the manipulation. You’ll learn how to self-source what you once outsourced.
You don’t need the Kool-Aid to get the benefits.
8: Activating Growth Mode
This is your integration chapter. We go from survival to expansion. You’ll create a vision for what’s next, reconnect with your purpose, and step into your next evolution—rooted, grounded, and free.
Freedom isn’t the end.
It’s the beginning.
This isn’t just a course.
It’s a deprogramming system
for people leaving AA.
Inside, you’ll walk through 8 transformative modules that help you identify, unravel, and release AA’s high-control tactics—so you can reclaim your truth, rebuild your autonomy, and finally live free.
Module 1: AA’s High-Control System
Understand exactly what you’re breaking free from. We’ll name the high control tactics so you can see the system clearly and stop blaming yourself for how hard this has been.
You’re not failing—you’re escaping a high-control group.
2: Mind Control Recovery
This is where the spell breaks. You’ll learn how AA shaped your thoughts without your consent—and how to dismantle the core beliefs that are still running in your mind. You’ll uncover “The Big Lie,” rewrite your truth, and finally start thinking clearly again.
This is where the fog lifts.
3: AA’s Neurodivergent Gaslighting
What if what they called “untreated alcoholism” was actually just your neurodivergence? Here, we unpack how AA pathologized traits like sensitivity, intensity, and pattern recognition—and help you reclaim them as your superpowers.
You don’t need to fix your brain.
You need to understand it.
4: Freedom From Manipulation
You’ll name the emotional control tactics for what they are—spiritual gaslighting, narcissistic abuse, and cult-like control. This is where guilt starts to dissolve and boundaries get built. You’ll walk away with clarity, confidence, and scripts for real-life conversations.
You’re allowed to protect yourself
from systems that once helped you.
5: Reclaiming Your Power
This is your identity rebirth. You’ll reconnect with your truth, your voice, your joy—and stop waiting for permission to be yourself. We’ll trade spiritual obedience for soul-aligned expression, and build real internal safety without external validation.
You were never powerless. They just told you that.
6: Creating New Connections
Leaving AA can feel like social death. In this module, we’ll grieve the loss and build new soul-deep connections. You’ll learn how to spot safe people, find your kindred spirits, and stop apologizing for walking your own path.
You’re not alone.
You just haven’t found your people yet.
7: Recreating AA’s Benefits
—Without the Dogma
AA did serve you. And here’s the wild part: You can recreate everything good about it—structure, support, connection, purpose—without the manipulation. You’ll learn how to self-source what you once outsourced.
You don’t need the Kool-Aid to get the benefits.
8: Activating Growth Mode
This is your integration chapter. We go from survival to expansion. You’ll create a vision for what’s next, reconnect with your purpose, and step into your next evolution—rooted, grounded, and free.
Freedom isn’t the end.
It’s the beginning.
Who This Is For
- You've outgrown the steps, but still feel tethered to the program.
- You know you're not broken, but AA's voice is still in your head.
- You're craving truth, autonomy, and real freedom—not another dogma dressed as healing.
- You're not looking to bash AA—but you're done gaslighting yourself about what it really is.
- You don't want to drink—you want to live.
- You're ready to finally reclaim your identity, your mind, and your future.
Who This Is Not For
- If you're still in AA and love it—beautiful.
- This isn't for you if you believe recovery is a life sentence—you won't like what I have to say.
- If you think questioning the program is dangerous, selfish, or ungrateful—this isn't your space.
- If you're looking for a new guru, rigid path, or someone to tell you exactly what to do—you won't find that here.
- If you're committed to staying in a system that tells you you'll die without it—this isn't your time. Yet.
Who This Is For
- You've outgrown the steps, but still feel tethered to the program.
- You know you're not broken, but AA's voice is still in your head.
- You're craving truth, autonomy, and real freedom—not another dogma dressed as healing.
- You're not looking to bash AA—but you're done gaslighting yourself about what it really is.
- You don't want to drink—you want to live.
- You're ready to finally reclaim your identity, your mind, and your future.
Who This Is Not For
- If you're still in AA and love it—beautiful.
- This isn't for you if you believe recovery is a life sentence—you won't like what I have to say.
- If you think questioning the program is dangerous, selfish, or ungrateful—this isn't your space.
- If you're looking for a new guru, rigid path, or someone to tell you exactly what to do—you won't find that here.
- If you're committed to staying in a system that tells you you'll die without it—this isn't your time. Yet.
What You Get Inside Evolving After Recovery
This is more than a course. It’s a deprogramming portal. A reclamation process.
A nervous-system-safe way to get your f*cking mind back after AA. Inside, you’ll get…
01. The Core Curriculum
Eight carefully crafted modules that walk you step-by-step through the deprogramming process—from understanding high-control ideology, to mind control recovery, to reclaiming your power, purpose, and voice.
You’ll get access to:
- Guides + Checklists that help you recognize manipulation, high control and toxic recovery narratives in real time.
- Workbooks + Journaling Prompts that gently help you unwind fear and reconnect with truth.
- Audio Journeys to support nervous system regulation and subconscious integration.
- Deeper Dives for when you're ready to nerd out and go further.
Every single piece is here to help you go from
confused and afraid to clear and sovereign.
02. All the Resources That Helped Me Escape
When I left AA, I had no map.
So I made one.
And now I’m giving it to you.
Inside the course, you’ll find the exact YouTube videos, articles, TED Talks, podcasts, and research links that cracked my mind open during those first six months. These aren’t just resources—they’re lifelines.
You don’t have to dive into them, but if you want to go deep?
The rabbit hole is ready.
What You Get Inside
Evolving After Recovery
This is more than a course.
It’s a deprogramming portal.
A reclamation process. A nervous-system-safe way to get your f*cking mind back after AA.
Inside, you’ll get…
01. The Core Curriculum
Eight carefully crafted modules that walk you step-by-step through the deprogramming process—from understanding high-control ideology, to rmind control recovery, to reclaiming your power, purpose, and voice.
You’ll get access to:
- Guides + Checklists that help you recognize manipulation, high control and toxic recovery narratives in real time.
- Workbooks + Journaling Prompts that gently help you unwind fear and reconnect with truth.
- Audio Journeys to support nervous system regulation and subconscious integration.
- Deeper Dives for when you're ready to nerd out and go further.
Every single piece is here to help you go from
confused and afraid to clear and sovereign.
02. All the Resources
That Helped Me Escape
When I left AA, I had no map.
So I made one.
And now I’m giving it to you.
Inside the course, you’ll find the exact YouTube videos, articles, TED Talks, podcasts, and research links that cracked my mind open during those first six months. These aren’t just resources—they’re lifelines.
You don’t have to dive into them, but if you want to go deep?
The rabbit hole is ready.
Let’s Talk About the Real Cost of Staying Stuck in Programming
Deprogramming isn’t just about feeling free. It’s about functioning again.
Because when you’re trapped in the high control hangover, here’s what it really costs you:
FOUCS: You can’t concentrate because you’re too busy running mental checks on whether you’re being “selfish,” “in your disease,” or “doing it wrong.” You question every instinct. Second-guess every decision. And waste precious energy managing fear instead of momentum.
TIME: How many hours have you spent spiraling? Ruminating? Googling to make sure you’re not crazy? Trying to figure it out on your own? That’s not freedom. That’s exhaustion.
RELATIONSHIPS: When you’re still wired to fear disapproval or rejection from the group, it’s hard to fully show up in new friendships, in intimacy, or even as a parent. You hide. You mask. You don’t feel safe to be seen. Because part of you is still afraid you’re wrong.
HEALTH: Chronic stress from unprocessed cognitive dissonance takes a real toll on your nervous system. It keeps you in fight-or-flight. Which means inflammation, sleep issues, burnout, hormone imbalances—and long-term, that’s a fast-track to autoimmune issues, anxiety, and pure depletion.
MONEY: When you don’t trust yourself, you don’t make bold moves. You delay decisions. You undercharge. You hide your voice. You can’t access your creativity or leadership because the voice in your head is still Bill W which keeps you stuck in survival mode.
The longer you wait to reclaim your mind, the longer you delay the life you’re meant to build.
This course isn’t just a nice idea.
It’s the path back to your life.
You don’t just reclaim your freedom.
You reclaim your time.
Your energy.
Your health.
Your capacity to lead.
Your ability to thrive.
Let’s Talk About the Real Cost of Staying Stuck in Programming
Deprogramming isn’t just about feeling free.
It’s about functioning again.
Because when you’re trapped in the high control hangover, here’s what it really costs you:
FOUCS: You can’t concentrate because you’re too busy running mental checks on whether you’re being “selfish,” “in your disease,” or “doing it wrong.” You question every instinct. Second-guess every decision. And waste precious energy managing fear instead of momentum.
TIME: How many hours have you spent spiraling? Ruminating? Googling to make sure you’re not crazy? Trying to figure it out on your own? That’s not freedom. That’s exhaustion.
RELATIONSHIPS: When you’re still wired to fear disapproval or rejection from the group, it’s hard to fully show up in new friendships, in intimacy, or even as a parent. You hide. You mask. You don’t feel safe to be seen. Because part of you is still afraid you’re wrong.
HEALTH: Chronic stress from unprocessed cognitive dissonance takes a real toll on your nervous system. It keeps you in fight-or-flight. Which means inflammation, sleep issues, burnout, hormone imbalances—and long-term, that’s a fast-track to autoimmune issues, anxiety, and pure depletion.
MONEY: When you don’t trust yourself, you don’t make bold moves. You delay decisions. You undercharge. You hide your voice. You can’t access your creativity or leadership because the voice in your head is still Bill W which keeps you stuck in survival mode.
The longer you wait to reclaim your mind, the longer you delay the life you’re meant to build.
This course isn’t just a nice idea.
It’s the path back to your life.
You don’t just reclaim your freedom.
You reclaim your time.
Your energy.
Your health.
Your capacity to lead.
Your ability to thrive.
Normally when I launch a course, it’s a couple thousand dollars—sometimes several.
But I’m not doing that this time.
Because this isn’t just a course.
It’s a rescue rope.
A reclamation process.
A sanity-saving, soul-returning,
mind-unf*cking mission.
And if you’re in the void right now?
You don’t need a $2,000 decision.
You need relief.
Clarity.
Freedom.
Now
Because the cost of staying stuck is far too high. The longer you wait to untangle the programming, the more it leaks into everything.
Normally when I launch a course,
it’s a couple thousand dollars—sometimes several.
But I’m not doing that this time.
Because this isn’t just a course.
It’s a rescue rope.
A reclamation process.
A sanity-saving, soul-returning, mind-unf*cking mission.
And if you’re in the void right now?
You don’t need a $2,000 decision.
You need relief.
Clarity.
Freedom.
Now
Because the cost of staying stuck is far too high.
The longer you wait to untangle the programming, the more it leaks into everything.
Reclaim Your Mind. Rebuild Your Life.
You don’t need another recovery plan.
You need your brain back.
You need a space to question everything that’s been haunting your mind… and rebuild a life that’s actually yours.
Evolving After Recovery is that space.
If you’re feeling the pull—that whisper that says you’re not crazy,
you’re just waking up—you already know.
This is for you.
What's the value of breaking free from fear based programming
and finally trusting yourself again?
Easily $5,000+.
But honestly—what's reclaiming your mind,
your voice and your future really worth?
Join for $149 USD
But the price goes up to $197 on April 27th.
Deprogram the dogma. Lifetime access. Total reclamation.
Your future self is already proud of you.
Reclaim Your Mind.
Rebuild Your Life.
You don’t need another recovery plan.
You need your brain back.
You need a space to question everything that’s been haunting your mind… and rebuild a life that’s actually yours.
Evolving After Recovery is that space.
If you’re feeling the pull—that whisper that says you’re not crazy, you’re just waking up
—you already know.
This is for you.
The value of breaking free from fear based programming and finally trusting yourself again?
Easily $5,000+.
But honestly—
what's reclaiming your mind,
your voice and your future really worth?
Join for $149 USD
But the price goes up to
$197 on April 27th.
Deprogram the dogma.
Lifetime access.
Total reclamation.
Your future self is already proud of you.
Brand New for 2025. Rooted in Lived Experience.
This course was created and filmed in 2025—five years after I left AA
and began rebuilding my life from the inside out.
You’ll be one of the first to walk through this deprogramming process,
but the tools, insights, and frameworks inside are built from over a decade
of guiding others through deep transformation in my coaching programs.
Here’s what past students and clients say about working with me…
Brand New for 2025.
Rooted in Lived Experience.
This course was created and filmed in 2025
—five years after I left AA and began rebuilding my life from the inside out.
You’ll be one of the first to walk through this deprogramming process, but the tools, insights, and frameworks inside are built from over a decade of guiding others through deep transformation in my coaching programs.
Here’s what past students and clients
say about working with me…
What Makes Evolving After Recovery Different
There’s no shortage of therapy, recovery alternatives,
or trauma-informed tools out there.
But nothing quite like this.
Because this isn’t a course about recovering from alcohol.
It’s about deprogramming.
Most programs are designed to help you stay sober or manage your emotions.
Evolving After Recovery is different—it’s designed to help you break free
from the mind control tactics you didn’t even realize were still running your life.
This isn’t about blaming or bashing.
It’s about liberation.
You won’t be handed another script to follow—you’ll be guided through a process
of critically examining the one you’ve already internalized… and learning how to write your own.
Inside this deprogramming experience, you’ll be led by someone who:
- Spent over a decade fully immersed in AA
- Lived the dogma, served the coffee, cried at the graves
- Left during the early pandemic, and spent the next five years researching what really happened to her mind
- Studied high-control groups, emotional manipulation and cult psychology
- Mapped the Big Book like a sales page—and cracked the psychological code
- Rebuilt her nervous system, reclaimed her brain, and finally started living from self-trust
I'm not a therapist with a clipboard.
I lived it, questioned it, and broke free—and now I'm handing you the map.
You’ll get the tools, insights, and frameworks I wish someone
had given me when I was trapped in the after recovery void.
You’ll laugh.
You’ll probably cry.
You’ll question everything you’ve ever been told about recovery—and maybe even yourself.
And most importantly?
You’ll get your mind, life, and power back.
And here’s something no other recovery course is talking about:
- A lot of what AA calls “alcoholic thinking” is actually… neurodivergence.
- Back in 1938, Bill didn’t have language for ADHD, autism, trauma, nervous system dysregulation or mental health—so he called it “untreated alcoholism.”
- But what if your so-called “alcoholic mind” was actually a brilliant, sensitive, divergent brain trying to survive in a world that didn’t understand it?
For sure Bill W. is legendary.
And AA was revolutionary.
This is still true for me.
It's just not the 1930's anymore.
We know better now. So we can do better now.
That’s why Module 3 is devoted entirely to unpacking neurodivergence.
Because if this is you too, you don’t need to fix your wiring.
You need to understand it.
And stop mistaking your brilliance for brokenness.
What Makes
Evolving After Recovery Different
There’s no shortage of therapy, recovery alternatives, or trauma-informed tools out there.
But nothing quite like this.
Because this isn’t a course about
recovering from alcohol.
It’s about deprogramming.
Most programs are designed to help you
stay sober or manage your emotions.
Evolving After Recovery is different
—it’s designed to help you break free from
the mind control tactics you didn’t even realize were still running your life.
This isn’t about blaming or bashing.
It’s about liberation.
You won’t be handed another script to follow—you’ll be guided through a process of critically examining the one you’ve already internalized…
and learning how to write your own.
Inside this deprogramming experience,
you’ll be led by someone who:
- Spent over a decade fully immersed in AA
- Lived the dogma, served the coffee, cried at the graves
- Left during the early pandemic, and spent the next five years researching what really happened to her mind
- Studied high-control groups, emotional manipulation and cult psychology
- Mapped the Big Book like a sales page—and cracked the psychological code
- Rebuilt her nervous system, reclaimed her brain, and finally started living from self-trust
I'm not a therapist with a clipboard.
I lived it, questioned it, and broke free
—and now I'm handing you the map.
You’ll get the tools, insights, and frameworks I wish someone had given me when I was trapped in the after recovery void.
You’ll laugh.
You’ll probably cry.
You’ll question everything you’ve ever been told about recovery—and maybe even yourself.
And most importantly?
You’ll get your mind, life, and power back.
And here’s something no other
recovery course is talking about:
- A lot of what AA calls “alcoholic thinking” is actually… neurodivergence.
- Back in 1938, Bill didn’t have language for ADHD, autism, trauma, nervous system dysregulation or mental health—so he called it “untreated alcoholism.”
- But what if your so-called “alcoholic mind” was actually a brilliant, sensitive, divergent brain trying to survive in a world that didn’t understand it?
For sure Bill W. is legendary.
And AA was revolutionary.
This is still true for me.
It's just not the 1930's anymore.
We know better now.
So we can do better now.
That’s why Module 3 is devoted entirely
to unpacking neurodivergence.
Because if this is you too,
you don’t need to fix your wiring.
You need to understand it.
And stop mistaking your
brilliance for brokenness.
The dawn is dawning.
It's giving rebirth.
If you're here right now—confused, scared, angry, and not sure if you're losing your mind or finally waking up—you're not alone.
I've been exactly where you are.
I'm not a guru.
I'm not a therapist.
I'm not a doctor.
I'm not here to sell you a new dogma.
I'm just a woman who spent over a decade in AA, fully devoted to the program, and then when the cracks got too loud—walked away.
For a long time, I wasn't sure if it was safe to leave—or if I was walking straight
into jails, institutions or death.
But once I saw that the ideology possessed me,
I knew I needed to deprogram.
Now I'm here to share what I've learned—not as an expert, but as someone who lived it, studied the hell out of it, and found her way to freedom.
I swear.
I make jokes.
I laugh a lot.
I use science, soul, and sass.
I believe humor can heal
and the truth can set us free.
Yes, this work is deep.
But it's also liberating AF.
If you're looking for someone to hand you another script or be your new higher power...
That's not me.
But if you're ready to get your mind back
and walk your own path?
I'll walk with you.
I'm Kirsten.
The Sobriety Bestie.
Here to guide you to freedom.
The dawn is dawning. It's giving rebirth.
If you're here right now—confused, scared, angry, and not sure if you're losing your mind
or finally waking up—you're not alone. I've been exactly where you are.
I'm not a guru. I'm not a therapist. I'm not a doctor. I'm not here to sell you a new dogma. I'm just a woman who spent over a decade in AA, fully devoted to the program, and then when the cracks got too loud—walked away.
For a long time, I wasn't sure if it was safe to leave—or if I was walking straight into jails, institutions or death. But once I saw that the ideology possessed me, I knew I needed to deprogram.
Now I'm here to share what I've learned—not as an expert, but as someone who lived it, studied the hell out of it, and found her way to freedom.
I swear. I make jokes. I laugh a lot. I use science, soul, and sass. I believe humor can heal and the truth can set us free. Yes, this work is deep. But it's also liberating AF.
If you're looking for someone to hand you another script or be your new higher power... That's not me. But if you're ready to get your mind back and walk your own path?
I'll walk with you.
I'm Kirsten. The Sobriety Bestie. Here to guide you to freedom.
FAQs
Q: Why is deprogramming even necessary?
Because if you don’t unravel the old ideology, you’ll never know who the f*ck you actually are. AA taught you to see your deepest traits as flaws, to doubt your instincts, and to outsource your identity to a group.
Deprogramming gives you your self back—so you can live from authenticity instead of fear. This isn’t just about leaving AA. It’s about finally meeting the version of you that was buried underneath the slogans.
Q: How long will I have access to the course?
You’ll get lifetime of course access to the core content, so you can revisit it whenever you need a reminder that you’re not crazy—you’re just deprogramming. New layers will hit every time you return. This isn’t just information—it’s integration.
Q: What if I fall behind?
There’s no “behind.” This is not school. This is an evolution. Some weeks will hit hard. Some will simmer quietly. You’re not here to win a gold star—you’re here to get free. Go at your own pace. You can’t do this wrong.
Q: What if I don’t agree with everything you say?
Good. That means you’re thinking for yourself. You don’t have to agree with me. In fact, I hope you don’t agree with everything I say. Because the whole point of this course is to help you reclaim your thinking.
Also, this course is for educational purposes only, and it’s meant to support you in critically examining beliefs you may have internalized without consent. What you do with that is completely up to you. I’m not here to tell you what to think. I’m here to help you remember that you can.
Q: Will this help me figure out what to do next?
Yes. Module 8 is all about activating Growth Mode—where you stop trying to just recover and start creating what’s next. Purpose, connection, joy, dreams—it’s all in there. You won’t just untangle the past. You’ll start building your future.
Q: Won’t this just piss off my sponsor?
Honestly? Probably. We’ll save her a seat. (Just kidding… unless?)
This course isn’t about fighting with your old crew—it’s about reclaiming your autonomy. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for your continued evolution. You’re allowed to grow, evolve, and walk your own path—even if it makes other people uncomfortable.
Q: Do I have to hate AA to do this?
Nope. This course isn’t about hating AA—it’s about freeing yourself from its grip. You can love parts of it, feel grateful for what it gave you, and still decide to evolve beyond it. This is about liberation, not loyalty.
Q: What if I’m scared I’ll relapse without AA?
That fear isn’t proof you’re broken. It’s proof you’ve been phobia indoctrinated. We unpack this in depth inside the course, so you can finally separate truth from programming. You’ll get tools to rebuild internal trust, regulate your nervous system, and create safety without needing an external authority to feel okay. If you're in super early days recovery, you may also need a non dogmatic recovery group or solid therapist to help you get stable recovery.
Q: I’m not sure I can trust myself to make this decision. What if I regret it?
That hesitation? That’s the programming. AA taught you to fear your own mind. To doubt your gut. To outsource truth. This course will help you rebuild that trust—and making this choice might be the very first step. You don’t need to be certain. You just need to be curious.
Q: I’m in therapy / on meds / doing trauma work already. Will this conflict with that?
This course is a powerful complement to any therapeutic or healing path. Therapy is amazing—but most therapists aren’t familiar with high-control group dynamics or 12 step deprogramming. This course gives you the language and frameworks your therapist might not even know exist. Bring what you uncover here into your sessions—it’ll supercharge your evolution.
Q: Is there a refund policy?
Evolving After Recovery isn’t a passive course you binge in a weekend—it’s a deep reclamation process. Because of that, there are no refunds after purchase. This boundary isn’t about being harsh. It’s about honoring the container. It keeps the space safe from internet trolls and people who aren’t truly ready to do the work.
If you’re unsure, take your time. Trust your body. Read the page again. Feel into it. This course isn’t going anywhere. But if you join—it’s because you’re ready. Ready to question. Ready to reclaim. Ready to evolve.
Q: Can I really do this?
If you’ve made it this far down the page, you already are.
Disclaimer:
This course is for educational and informational purposes only. It is not a medical service and does not diagnose, treat, or cure any disease, condition, or mental health disorder. Nothing shared inside this program is a substitute for professional therapy, medical treatment, or individualized care. Evolving After Recovery is not affiliated with or endorsed by Alcoholics Anonymous, AA World Services, or any 12-step organization.
What Happens Next.
When you join Evolving After Recovery, You'll Get:
- An email with your login details to the course portal
- Instant access to the entire 8 module course, worksheets, audios and guides
- Everything is accessible via BestieClub.com or on our mobile app
If you don't see the email within 5 minutes, check your spam folder or promotions tab.
And yes—this evolution starts the moment you say yes.
What Happens Next.
When you join Evolving After Recovery, you’ll get:
- An email with your login details to the course portal
- Instant access to the entire 8 module course, worksheets, audios and guides
- Everything is accessible via BestieClub.com or on our mobile app
If you don't see the email within 5 minutes, check your spam folder or promotions tab.
And yes—this evolution starts the moment you say yes.
Last thing before you go.
You don’t have to keep doing this alone.
You don’t have to keep wondering if you’re broken.
You get to choose you now.
This is about evolving.
It’s about being free.
Ready to reclaim your mind?
Join for $149 before the price goes up April 27th.
Deprogram the dogma. Lifetime access. Total reclamation.
I'll see you inside.
Last thing before you go.
You don’t have to keep doing this alone.
You don’t have to keep wondering if you’re broken.
You get to choose you now.
This is about evolving.
It’s about being free.
Ready to reclaim your mind?
Join for $149 USD
before the price goes up April 27th.
Deprogram the dogma.
Lifetime access.
Total reclamation.
I'll see you inside.
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