For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."
Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.
I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew.
If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.
I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.
For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."
Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.
I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew.
If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.
I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.
Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.
🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.
I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?
Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.
🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.
I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?
I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.
From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with my Bali dog bestie, Luna.
From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.
I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.
From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with the Bali dog, Luna.
From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.
I believe we are souls inside bodies here to evolve.
That you can heal your brain.
Rewrite your story.
And live like you f*cking mean it.
We're ditching the dogma here. No one-size-fits all.
Just the truth, tools and support I wish I had when I was stuck in silence and fear.
I believe we are souls inside bodies here to evolve.
That you can heal your brain.
Rewrite your story.
And live like you f*cking mean it.
We're ditching the dogma here. No one-size-fits all.
Just the truth, tools and support I wish I had when I was stuck in silence and fear.
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