
Freeway phobia.
Public speaking phobia.
Scared to leave the house.
Constant anxiety attacks.
I used alcohol to quiet the fear — but it only made the anxiety worse.
So my strategy became simple: avoid the things that scared me.

For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."
Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.
I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew.
If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.
I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.
Then one day a thought hit me: “I can’t keep doing this.”
Getting sober became my turning point. It felt like a second chance at life. But without alcohol, the anxiety was louder than ever.
It became clear that avoidance wasn’t working.
Courage was the only way out.
So I made a decision: I would train courage for as long as it took to rebuild my life.

Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.
🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.
I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?

From being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with my Bali dog Luna.
From petrified of public speaking… to sharing my secrets on a TEDx stage.
From not driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From afraid to question AA… to helping thousands deprogram from 12 step ideology.
I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.
From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with the Bali dog, Luna.
From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.
From being terrified to say I left AA… to helping thousands deprogram through Sobriety Bestie Podcast.





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