I Was Dying from Fear and Alcohol.

For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."

Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.

I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew. 

If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.

I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.

I chose to live.

I Was Dying from Fear and Alcohol.

For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."

Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.

I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew.

​If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.

I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.

I chose to live.

But Then There Was Nothing Between Me and the Fear.

Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.

🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.

I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?

I Had to Face the Fear.

But Then There Was Nothing
Between Me and the Fear.

Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.

🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.

I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?

I Had to Face the Fear.

So I made a commitment:

F*ck Fear.
Deprogram the bullsh*t.
Reclaim my voice.

​Do what scares me—so I can break free.
And that choice changed everything.

So I made a commitment:


F*ck Fear.

Deprogram the bullsh*t.

Reclaim my voice.

​Do what scares me—so I can break free. And that choice changed everything.

Now I help others do the same.

I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.
From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with my Bali dog bestie, Luna.
From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.

Now I help others do the same.

I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.

From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.

From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.

From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with the Bali dog, Luna.

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From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.

I refuse to be defined by dysfunction. I'm here to evolve.

I believe we are souls inside bodies here to evolve.

​That you can heal your brain.
​Rewrite your story.
​And live like you f*cking mean it.

​We're ditching the dogma here. No one-size-fits all.
Just the truth, tools and support I wish I had when I was stuck in silence and fear.

I refuse to be defined by dysfunction.
I'm here to evolve.

I believe we are souls inside bodies here to evolve.

​That you can heal your brain.
​Rewrite your story.
​And live like you f*cking mean it.

​We're ditching the dogma here. No one-size-fits all.
Just the truth, tools and support I wish I had when I was stuck in silence and fear.

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Because you’ve got a life to live.
And a mission to build.

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