But I didn't want to stop drinking. I mean, alcohol was the only thing that stopped my anxiety otherwise it was always through the roof!
Then one day I was walking down my hallway and caught my reflection in the mirror. I didn't recognize myself, it was like I was looking at an empty shell, as if the flame of my spirit was about to go out.
I had a sort of spiritual awakening where I knew that I was dying from fear and alcohol and that if I didn't quit drinking, like soon, I'd die.
Then in early sobriety, I felt like I was afraid of everything and had little, if any,
ability to be with the rollercoaster of emotions it felt like I was suddenly on.
I was dominated by fear until one day I realized how my life had gotten so small.
My strategy with fear had been to stop doing the things that scared me which at my bottom included driving, leaving the house, existing without alcohol in my system...
In sobriety, I couldn't live with all the anxiety and anxiety attacks
and I believed that drinking again would kill me, so I felt totally fucked.
Somewhere in me I knew the only way out of what felt like a hole of fear was to be willing to be uncomfortable for as long as it took to recreate my life. Which meant I had to
change my relationship with fear and start doing the things that scared me!
But I didn't want to stop drinking.
I mean, alcohol was the only thing that stopped my anxiety otherwise it was always through the roof!
Then one day I was walking down my hallway and caught my reflection in the mirror. I didn't recognize myself, it was like I was looking at an empty shell, as if the flame of my spirit was about to go out.
I had a sort of spiritual awakening where
I knew that I was dying from fear and alcohol and that if I didn't quit drinking, I'd die.
Then in early sobriety, I felt like I was
afraid of everything and had little, if any,
ability to be with the rollercoaster of emotions it felt like I was suddenly on.
I was dominated by fear until one day I realized how my life had gotten so small.
My strategy with fear had been to stop doing the things that scared me which at my bottom included driving, leaving the house, existing without alcohol in my system...
In sobriety, I couldn't live with all the
anxiety and anxiety attacks and I believed that drinking again would kill me,
so I felt totally fucked.
Somewhere in me I knew the only way out of what felt like a hole of fear was to be willing to be uncomfortable for as long as it took to recreate my life. Which meant I had to
change my relationship with fear and start doing the things that scared me!
Fear, doubt and insecurity can dominate us in sobriety leaving us feeling stuck
or trapped in an inauthentic and unfulfilling life. We can spend years
not living up to our potential, feeling like life is passing us by.
Maybe this is you, you want the anxiety or anxiety attacks to stop or
you want to feel comfortable in your skin sober and to get your confidence back.
I'm here to guide you in your next aligned step.
Fear, doubt and insecurity can dominate us in sobriety leaving us feeling stuck or trapped in an inauthentic and unfulfilling life. We can spend years not living up to our potential, feeling like life is passing us by.
Maybe this is you, you want the anxiety or anxiety attacks to stop or you want to feel comfortable in your skin sober and to get your confidence back.
I'm here to guide you in
your next aligned step.
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