For years fear quietly shaped my life.

Freeway phobia.
Public speaking phobia.
Scared to leave the house.

Constant anxiety attacks.

​I used alcohol to quiet the fear — but it only made the anxiety worse.

So my strategy became simple: avoid the things that scared me.

Avoidance was running my life.

I Was Dying from Fear and Alcohol.

For years, I used alcohol to quiet the fear. To shut down the anxiety. To ease the panic. To feel "normal."

Then one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror. I stopped. I didn’t recognize myself.

I looked like an empty shell—like the fire inside me was about to go out. And in that moment, I knew.

​If I didn’t quit drinking, I was going to die.

I didn’t really choose to stop drinking.

I chose to live.

But the more I avoided fear, the smaller my world became.

Then one day a thought hit me: “I can’t keep doing this.”

Getting sober became my turning point. It felt like a second chance at life. But without alcohol, the anxiety was louder than ever.

It became clear that avoidance wasn’t working.

Courage was the only way out.

So I made a decision: I would train courage for as long as it took to rebuild my life.

I decided to be courageous.

But Then There Was Nothing
Between Me and the Fear.

Getting sober didn’t make my fears disappear. They were always there.

🚫 Freeway phobia.
🚫 Avoiding leaving the house.
🚫 Public speaking? Hell no.

I couldn’t even sit with my own emotions. The anxiety attacks felt nonstop. Before, I numbed it all with alcohol. But now?

I Had to Face the Fear.

For the past 14 years I’ve helped thousands of people
overcome fear and start living boldly again.

My mantra became F*ck Fear.

I committed to being courageous.​

Training courage changed my life.



I decided to be courageous and took lots of action.

My mantra became...
F*ck Fear.

And that changed everything.

This is what training courage actually looks like.

From being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali.
From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with my Bali dog Luna.
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From petrified of public speaking… to sharing my secrets on a TEDx stage.
​From not driving for 3.5 years…
to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.
From afraid to question AA… to helping thousands deprogram from 12 step ideology.

Every rep builds courage.

Now I help others do the same.

I went from being afraid to leave my house… to moving to Bali and traveling the world.

From avoiding driving for 3.5 years… to solo road-tripping 13,000 miles across the U.S.

From terrified of public speaking… to sharing all my deep dark secrets in a TEDx talk.

From a crippling fear of dogs… to falling in love with the Bali dog, Luna.

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From being petrified to leave AA... to breaking free from the "forever recovery" dogma in 2020.

​From being terrified to say I left AA… to helping thousands deprogram through Sobriety Bestie Podcast.

Courage changed everything about how I live.

You’re not broken or powerless.​

You’re a soul inside a body built to evolve, to create, to come alive again.

You can rewire your brain, rewrite your story, and live like you f*cking mean it.

Around here, we ditch the dogma — no one-size-fits-all, no waiting for permission.

You're here because something in you is ready to change.

Inside Courage Gym, we train courage the way athletes train muscle:
reps, resistance, and a community that helps you
do the things you've been avoiding.


That's Why I Write
The ALL IN Emails.

Real talk on courage, freedom,
and doing the damn thing.

Because you’ve got a life to live.
And you're ready to go ALL IN.